As you may have noticed, I have not blogged in a while. I have been away trying to figure out life, and most of all where I am at in the process. While doing so, I have noticed that I have not been focusing on the things that are important to me. It is almost as if I started to become a great person that society would respect, but was losing my intellectual side. In other words, I was becoming normal. Anyone who knows me can tell you that I am far from normal. I noticed that I stopped following my dreams, and started to become the individual who wanted to do things the right way. I could tell that I was becoming the typical definition of what people think of when they hear the word successful. However, that is not my truth. My truth does not reside in a 9-5 or in being politically correct. One thing that is really cool about the body and your inner being, is that it can alert you. I was told by someone to listen to that “first voice.” She said do not listen to the second voice because it is what will cause you to doubt things.
When I started to listen to that first voice again, it told me that I had been down this route before. It assured me that it was time to follow my own trail. This is not the time in my life to be politically correct. I was not made to do things that everyone would consider the norm. I am different, and it is okay to be different. If society would stop focusing on the fact that everyone is not going to be the same, the world would be a better place. Why do we have to criticize people for living in their truth? No one should be afraid to express how they are feeling. This damages the person externally, causing the pain to show physically.
Speak your truth goes beyond walking your own path. It also involves being able to tell people how you feel. If you like someone, why not tell them? You never know what may happen if you do not take that chance. You could be missing out on something special. Your soulmate could be right in your face, and you would never know if you do not speak up. Speak up to your family. Let them know that it will be okay if you disappoint them. Just because you disappoint someone does not mean that you do not love them. We are all humans, and we have to be able to go through a path of discovery. Life is all about learning. They may not get why you chose the route that you have chosen, but they can respect you for doing the thing that you felt was best for you.
If you have dreams of being self-employed or doing something no one has ever done before, do not let anyone stop you. These are your dreams. As long as you believe in yourself and stay true to who you are, you can make these things happen. Live life, and do not let anyone stop you.
One person that has shown an example of this is one of my best friends. When I first met him, he talked about dreams of moving to New York constantly. This guy had a plan and executed it. He is now living out his dream of being a New Yorker. He gave me the courage to do the same. I have always lived my life with the thought of everyone’s logic. I have doubted myself, and have changed my plans because of what I thought would be the right thing societal wise. No more. In the words of Maxine Waters, “I am reclaiming my time.”
I encourage everyone else to do the same thing. I know it may be scary. Taking a risk and not knowing the outcome is the most fearful thing you can do. However, you have to realize that everything will be okay. No matter how bad it may get, it will have to eventually get better. You have to continue to strive and work hard. I know that the struggle can get real. Believe me, I have been through hell and back. However, you learn to appreciate those struggles. When I think about some of the things I went through, I get emotional. I will say to myself, “Damn. Look at you now.” You will never know why things happen the way that they do until you can see the light.
An example of this is when I dropped out of college. I was in my senior year. Now I know most individuals would say I was crazy for doing so. However, the universe and most of all God always works in your favor. I was an English major. I was not making the grades that I needed to make and was becoming bored with school. When I tried to go back to school, it was impossible for me to finish. I did not have enough money to go, and no one was volunteering to help me. I could not understand why this was happening. The two years that I was out of school were the most pivotable moments in my life I grew and matured a lot. I found myself. When I decided to go back, I changed my major. Everything fell in order. I was able to attend school without paying anything out of pocket. When you are doing what you are supposed to do and living in your truth, everything falls into place.
Honestly, life is great. If you keep living your truth and walking in your own path, things are going to align. Live your dreams. Keep fighting for what you believe in. Do not let anyone steal your magic. You are the one that will write your own story. Just continue to be amazing, and do not settle for less than that.